All the good ones go

I can't ask for help, and I certainly don't like to try.

" who can I call?"
I have moments where this question plays on repeat in a frantic effort to find resolution. Over and over again. Who do I call when I've been sitting here in my hole, hoping someone knows to dig me out? And to do it without me having to say so.

Something like, "hey, I miss you." or "I need company" or.... "somebody, please, just know." seems too ridiculous to voice. And it's certainly worse when I think about how two of the only people who can seamlessly do this are not within reach.
Leaving.

I feel like I'm losing a lot of people in my life right now. And I don't know how to reconcile this feeling.