Take 0.5?

You caught me- I have been avoiding you.
Part of me honestly doesn't want to talk to you, or even bother with any attempt at pleasantries, because in the end you just make me feel so badly about myself.

I'm sorry if you're life hasn't turned out the way you want--or if maybe all of this stems from worry or sincere concern (and i can't see it?)--but you shouldnt make me feel regret about things I haven't even had a chance to see through yet. It's wrong and really screws with my head.


I'm not you.
And Im really struggling to convince myself of this...but I have to do what's right for me, even if I don't know what that is yet.

Maybe I just really want you to be proud of me (Believe it or not, I do actually care what you think). And I desperately, desperately need a little support.

Can't you just give me that? Isn't that what parents are for? Im tired of feeling small and insignificant. Most of all I don't like feeling like some huge disappointment or failure because I've strayed from a path that is easier for you to accept for me.

(ugh.)