just thinking
The past couple of days I've really been thinking that I need to do something with my drawings. Well, that's a lie. I think about this all the time, it's been an on-and-off 3 year love affair, since I stopped painting.
I miss the full absorption---
I dont know what to do with them, but maye it's just a matter of display. Right now they're just sitting in a pad of tracing paper, and I love them in that unfinished form....so that's a good sign. I hope.
How can you take separate, maybe even seemingly unrelated, images to construct a narrative? There's a language there. I see them having a strong communication, I just need to figure out how to get this out of my head and into three-dimensional space. (Yes, 3D space, even though they/re flat images and technically 2D. Because when images function together in a space, it is trans formative. That's the goal.)
Small images. Repeated images. There's something to that. The emptiness says something.
It's driving me a little crazy lately, but it's the good kind of crazy.
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Somewhat relatedly, I've also hit a bit of a rough patch--where I want to do things, I just can't seem to make myself. The past two days I've been horribly unmotivated and feeling a little more toward hopeless. I hate that I slip into this mindset so easily, especially when its due to money problems. I think it's just because I feel like I have no control over my own life when I can't take care of things for myself. It sucks and it scares me.
But, I also feel better knowing that this is temporary. And I can say that with certainty. I was in this place almost every day last year and even the year before. It hung heavy, but now it's more of a reminder than an actual thing.
I need to work harder to keep from slipping into this powerless/hopeless state. And I can do it.
I miss the full absorption---
I dont know what to do with them, but maye it's just a matter of display. Right now they're just sitting in a pad of tracing paper, and I love them in that unfinished form....so that's a good sign. I hope.
How can you take separate, maybe even seemingly unrelated, images to construct a narrative? There's a language there. I see them having a strong communication, I just need to figure out how to get this out of my head and into three-dimensional space. (Yes, 3D space, even though they/re flat images and technically 2D. Because when images function together in a space, it is trans formative. That's the goal.)
Small images. Repeated images. There's something to that. The emptiness says something.
It's driving me a little crazy lately, but it's the good kind of crazy.
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Somewhat relatedly, I've also hit a bit of a rough patch--where I want to do things, I just can't seem to make myself. The past two days I've been horribly unmotivated and feeling a little more toward hopeless. I hate that I slip into this mindset so easily, especially when its due to money problems. I think it's just because I feel like I have no control over my own life when I can't take care of things for myself. It sucks and it scares me.
But, I also feel better knowing that this is temporary. And I can say that with certainty. I was in this place almost every day last year and even the year before. It hung heavy, but now it's more of a reminder than an actual thing.
I need to work harder to keep from slipping into this powerless/hopeless state. And I can do it.
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