the smell of maple syrup
Ive come a (long?) way, but I still feel a sting when I write Art History as my major.
Or say it...with this lowered, dragged out intonation, like I'm ashamed or embarrassed. or something.
Maybe if i keep writing it.
I dont know why I illegitimize what I usually work hard to validate to other people. Seems rather hypocritical and counter-productive if you ask me.
It's just hard to give up something you had planned out for over 3 years. Maybe that's it. But I need to stop making myself miserable---and this active attempt to thwart any forward motion.
(That could be where this 'lack of motivation' crap comes from.)
Or say it...with this lowered, dragged out intonation, like I'm ashamed or embarrassed. or something.
Maybe if i keep writing it.
ArtHistory ArtHistory ArtHistory ArtHistory.
I dont know why I illegitimize what I usually work hard to validate to other people. Seems rather hypocritical and counter-productive if you ask me.
It's just hard to give up something you had planned out for over 3 years. Maybe that's it. But I need to stop making myself miserable---and this active attempt to thwart any forward motion.
(That could be where this 'lack of motivation' crap comes from.)
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