paint what matters

This is what I live[d] by.
But how do you paint when so few things matter? What does that look like?

On "cartooneyness":

It can work. Hell, it does work. some of my favorite [German] artists use it in this really raw, expressive way. But it's still cartooney...and awesome and respectable.

Right now it's not what I want, though. I do cartooney in this like, "fun" dark humor sort of way, and while that's all well and good it's not how I want things to feel.

I'm putting too much pressure on what I want my art to do. I want it to illustrate and express everything I know is buried within me. Physical representations of things I can't even consciously identify. Too much!

This is just how my style evolved.
Sure let's go with that. I hate wasting paint. but.....maybe I have to.