closer to dad.
I am very grateful for this turn-around in our relationship. He has unexpectedly become a great confidant and friend, despite all of the things I may not like about him or how he has been as a father.
Im finding it easier and easier to let go of this pent up resentment, which has been a major road block for me. But, as I approach what I believe to be the beginning of my life...I'm afraid he feels like he has come to an end in his. This simply isn't true.
All his life I think he has underestimated himself. He settles with most everything, I think. I don't know the reason for this but without seeming too out of place/condescending I have been trying to be supportive and encourage his endeavours. He isn't that old, he still has time to make his life something he can be proud of.
I can tell he thinks about this, especially after seeing papa "waiting", as he calls it. I think it is important to be able to say, when all is said and done, that I'm happy with the life I lived. I am fulfilled.
That is really all I want for myself, my friends, and my family.
Im finding it easier and easier to let go of this pent up resentment, which has been a major road block for me. But, as I approach what I believe to be the beginning of my life...I'm afraid he feels like he has come to an end in his. This simply isn't true.
All his life I think he has underestimated himself. He settles with most everything, I think. I don't know the reason for this but without seeming too out of place/condescending I have been trying to be supportive and encourage his endeavours. He isn't that old, he still has time to make his life something he can be proud of.
I can tell he thinks about this, especially after seeing papa "waiting", as he calls it. I think it is important to be able to say, when all is said and done, that I'm happy with the life I lived. I am fulfilled.
That is really all I want for myself, my friends, and my family.
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