A lot of random thoughts today

•  I had my shoulder looked at twice today. It hurt. And I don't know what it means to "take it easy". Maybe this advice will make it heal faster. (do you hear that shoulder? take it easy and HEAL YOURSELF!)
• Apparently my hips are crooked and my collarbone is asymmetrical. 
• I wonder if it's difficult to become a  chiropractor. 
• I'm scared of the inflammation running rampant throughout my body. But im perhaps more scared of the anti-inflammatory drugs I was prescribed. 
• You do know that things like Alzheimers are basically due to inflammation right? Its the root of all evil. (obviously there's more to Alzheimer's...I quit science, remember?)
• Ice isn't helping anymore.
• I keep going back and forth between baking and Americorps, with no decision made... ever. 
• I like to stay busy during the day, but I get bored with basically everything pretty quickly. This is why I like 'active jobs'. Actually, it's kind of troublesome how quickly I get bored. Is this normal? 
• I'm scared of active jobs, though, because basically my body is like a used-car with 90,000 miles on it. Okay, let's make it a used toyota with 90,000 miles on it. It's still expensive, you see (they retain their market value), but  even though it's a toyota, you know it will give out on you sooner than you'd like. Since in this scenario it's a toyota, you keep saying to yourself, "it's okay, it's a toyota! Those things are made to LAST." It still isn't too reassuring and you kick yourself for throwing your money away and constantly wonder when your muffler is going to fall off or if you have a spare tire in your trunk. 
• For real, though, do you go for the job you like, that you have for RIGHT NOW? or do you go to the big question-mark job with lots of variables that you might not like AS MUCH (if not at all?) because it is something new and could maybe, potentially, one day open doors for you? Like...oak doors ...that are stable and real wood instead of compressed wood doors that are from Target and lead to injury because your body is a used toyota? 
• I'm still worrying about the vibe I give off. And then I am amazed by the fact that people like me/ I have friends/have someone who loves me. But then I stop being amazed and accept it, or at least try to. 
• And then worry again for a second and then it's over. 
• thought about AP ...............then I thought some more.........then I thought about the summer I worked at the MMC while she was in Europe, when she was all I thought about. In between bike riding and rock climbing. 
• Bananas are stupid.