ONGOING

Here's a dirty little secret. I want to be an artist.
Or rather, an artist-type.
Artists see the world differently. Artists create. I want that.

But, do I already have that? Am I somehow not an artist, or less of an artist, because I don't always create? Because all of the things I make are relatively unfinished or just sitting there, waiting for inspiration to strike and turn them into little tokens of genius? Maybe. Is it because I actively resist this title? I'm not sure. But I want to be one. I always seem to think I'm not 'creative' enough.

I feel like a hypocrite. I talk and talk about art this and art that and "I want to make something" but I never really do it! Why?! I don't know...I think it annoys me that I can't really "work" unless I have reference imagery. I want to be able to just draw what I want without having to look at pictures first! Is this somehow less legitimate?
Why can't we have an anatomy for artists class? I want to be able to draw the body in any position. I want to be able to draw anatomy! It's freakin awesome! I dont necessarily like figurative as narrative, but lately i cant get away from this idea of how do you tell a story without, I dunno, bodies in it? people? I miss being able to do abstract!

These are probably excuses. I'm good at those.

I tend to work conceptually- more or less top down. It gets me in trouble 9 times out of 10, but I usually have to start with a title or an image I want to repeat over and over. But mostly I like titles.
So. Ill start there? Titles! They help show me themes/motifs that tend to otherwise hide from me. .

But Does it Float?
She Said to Wait Here....


I lost the other ones. They'll be back.
Ideas ideas ideas ideas. Dont be shy, now! Feel free to flow from my brain into something my hands can make

I really want to play with tape again. FRENZYYYYYYYY.