What do I want?

It still amazes me that we can invest so much of ourselves in one person (or people in general, I suppose) and simultaneously push others away.

I hate that sometimes I can't recognize a good thing when it's there. that sometimes I don't give myself enough credit--and that has an impact on my experiences. that sometimes I seem just so disconnected with my own feelings I can't act on anything, let alone make decisions.

It all comes down to that basic question: what do I want?
I have no answers.