Kind of like cancer

Bitterness is destructive.
Left alone, it will propagate until it's out of control, and you're left wondering how it got so bad.


This is something I was struggling with for a long time. Hell, I still struggle with it, but it doesn't permeate my everything and turn it yellow.

I wish I could feel proud instead of ashamed. Jealous. Angry. Short-changed... Less than.

Mostly I was angry.

The tried and true "In the long run you'll be better off." is a load of crap to me. In the long run I might --might--know how to "manage money" on my own, which I have been doing this whole time, but I will STILL be in debt. It doesn't make me feel better.
Everyone else around me is 'better off' as far as I can tell.

Bitterness is often situational-- that's what I would like to believe. It's holds no permanence;  it can run its course --even if for a long time--and then move on, unsuspectedly.