cycles.

I'm not good at tension--navigating it, breaking it, or letting it go easily. I know it's dumb and unnecessary most of the time, and probably mostly in my head or my doing, but it's still there..somewhere. And the fact that most of the time it's unspoken tension stresses me out even more. How can you 'fix' what you don't say?

I feel like things aren't as 'easy' anymore, and that scares me a little. [maybe a lot]