I see distance on the horizon

anxiety and numbness are hard to juggle

At best, I'm mildly terrified about everything.
everything being: the 'future', 'my life', what career path to take, if that's even a reasonable claim to make, my loans, being poor, etc.
I don't like feeling this lost and not knowing what to do about it, what should or could be the next step, or how to find it.

I'm also generally worried about all of these things leading to distance. Withdrawing is a bad habit that comes back tor a visit when things reach a certain anxiety-level.

I'm trying....but I worry that it's just not enough?