I'm not an asshole.

I ignore I ignore I suppress I suppress I ignore
for the sake of not causing stress
for not fighting,
for not causing guilt
because of understanding.
But that isn't compromise. It's actually really unfair and probably unhealthy.
It's destructive.

And it's only successful to a point. Until I can't ignore it anymore...and then I do it all over again for as long as I can, hoping we'll somehow get back on track soon.

This is obviously a cycle I need to break. 

But I can't do it alone.

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I think I spend a lot of emotional and physical energy trying to NOT be an asshole.
The rest of that energy is spent, well, ignoring things.

What's that about a rock and a hard place?