He's the only one who ever asked me if I was happy.

I'm all torn up inside. I have so much regret and guilt I don't know what to do with it. I know it's not productive, but I can't make it stop.
I knew I would feel like this, in fact every time I didn't call them back for whatever reason I told myself I would feel like this...one day..and I should just start making the effort. And yet, I still didn't call.
Not because I didn't care....

I think in a weird way a part of me thought he'd always be around.