Fashion is hard.

Life's most difficult question: Oxfords or heels?
This is my dilemma. 

I wish I had anything intelligent or articulate to say about fashion, or more specifically, my fashion preferences.

Shopping, or more specifically shopping for "nice clothes"/formal wear, throws me into the teensiest version of an identity crisis. I'm somewhere in between what you would call (?) "Soft butch" and ...well, "Almost femme".

Actually I really have no idea what that even means. But let's pretend I do.

I feel like these categories may be the exact same thing...but at the same time they feel so far apart to me I'm torn between  rushing for the ties in the mens' section  or wanting to look "pretty" in a skirt/dress and heels. I do like heels. (I also like purses, or the idea of purses..I hate carrying them.)

I lust over men's wear. That's a simple fact. Ties (silk ties, casual ties) vests, cardigans, buttondown & sweater combos, blazers, cuff links! oxfords, oh my. I love them and I want to have an impressive collection one day.
At the same time, sometimes this "look" feels one-dimensional and I don't like feeling just..well, super gay looking and like all my clothes are the same (hypothetically. since i don't actually own many pieces of mens/men'swear inspired clothing)
Really, I want to look sexy in "men's wear". And not  in a "butchy" way.
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My problem with looking feminine is that I never actually feel Pretty or like myself. I feel..out of place. I feel like I constantly miss the mark on the look I want to achieve. Pretty, but in a classic sort of way. Sophisticated and beautiful...

But, I guess it's okay to have multiple looks. I guess I need to shop more? Sigh.


ADDENDUM: aha! I figured it out. Minus the obvious comments that could be made about my self esteem, this is it: I like men's wear, duh, but I think I like it as a more casual, semi-casual look. I'd wear that shit every day in varying degrees of "dressy" because it's comfortable and I feel good in it. But for formal wear...I don't think I'm one to go straight to the 3-piece suit. I feel like for really nice events I want to look girly. I just need to be comfortable feeling that way. BAM. CLARITY.