I guess it's not a bad thing? (Subtitled: proud to read)

words in the air 

and 

words on paper 

don't connect.

I feel like I'm FINALLY hearing (reading) about what you've been doing all year. And what's been going on inside your head. To some extent...How you feel. How you are. Who you are? How you've changed through your experiences.

It's not a bad thing, really, it just makes me terribly sad
thinking I don't get to know you unless it's written down for someone else.

It's probably my fault, to some extent. 

I don't know why it is--

what I DO that makes it my own fault.

Or how. 

Or how to change it.

Do I push you away?