Contradictions.

I've been 'fine' not seeing you. I feel "normal" when I dont.
but I also feel a kind of emptiness/longing, like there is something I'm ignoring.

I feel like i have so much to offer, but it's impossible for anyone to tell. (how can they? when will they?)


Mostly it worries me that this might be the closest thing to love I'm going to get.
and it's not even mine to keep.