Reasons I'm having trouble socializing lately.
I think I feel worse that my health issues have been/become such a prominent conversation more than the fact that I have health problems.
Let's forget for five seconds that ALL social situations revolve around food and alcohol and how impossibly hard that is for me to cope with at times... It is what it is.
Yes, I have health problems. Mysterious ones. And as crappy as it is, the fact of the matter is that I feel semi-lousy pretty much most of the time, but only when I really feel awful does it really affect my day to day life (well, I try anyway..usually I think I do a good job..social situations are tricky though..)
What I hate is when it constantly comes up, even when I meet people for the first time. I get that it's interesting and people are genuinely curious, but it's the last thing I want to sit and think about and communicate to you out loud, especially when I first meet you. It bums me out to list all the things I can't eat and to think about how long I've been trying to figure it out.
To say "No, they don't know what's wrong...Yes, I've been like this my whole life....No, I cant drink. No really, I can't drink...Yea, it does suck."
In general, I think I'm a good sport about it- both the conversations and the being-sick-thing.
But don't pity me
and don't say things like that sucks or I feel bad for you.
I don't feel bad for me [until you say that] I just want to get better.
And while I appreciate hashing out things I "might" be able to drink or try, I would rather just not talk about it in this context...at least until after I've met you more than once.
I think I need to just start telling people I'm an alcoholic when they offer me a drink and I refuse it.
Let's forget for five seconds that ALL social situations revolve around food and alcohol and how impossibly hard that is for me to cope with at times... It is what it is.
Yes, I have health problems. Mysterious ones. And as crappy as it is, the fact of the matter is that I feel semi-lousy pretty much most of the time, but only when I really feel awful does it really affect my day to day life (well, I try anyway..usually I think I do a good job..social situations are tricky though..)
What I hate is when it constantly comes up, even when I meet people for the first time. I get that it's interesting and people are genuinely curious, but it's the last thing I want to sit and think about and communicate to you out loud, especially when I first meet you. It bums me out to list all the things I can't eat and to think about how long I've been trying to figure it out.
To say "No, they don't know what's wrong...Yes, I've been like this my whole life....No, I cant drink. No really, I can't drink...Yea, it does suck."
In general, I think I'm a good sport about it- both the conversations and the being-sick-thing.
But don't pity me
and don't say things like that sucks or I feel bad for you.
I don't feel bad for me [until you say that] I just want to get better.
And while I appreciate hashing out things I "might" be able to drink or try, I would rather just not talk about it in this context...at least until after I've met you more than once.
I think I need to just start telling people I'm an alcoholic when they offer me a drink and I refuse it.
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