If there's a future, we want it Now

 I do things on my own timeline, often slower than some (most?) I seem to forget that.

I feel relief from the pressure I put on myself. I've finally stopped beating myself up over everything.
Yes, I still feel lost and confused and ..sometimes completely disheartened, but the load feels lighter.
 I've finally stopped fighting myself on everything.

Now, what I have to do is strike a balance between complacency and progress.