I feel VERY minimum wage.
I'm just..... tired. I'm tired of constantly searching for things and not getting them. I'm tired of not finding things I'm excited about... Of not even knowing what to look for or HOW to even make my first move.
I'm tired of things like TJs being the best I can hope for right now. My only good shot at a job.
How am I supposed to feel about that--proud? I don't feel proud. I feel embarrassed for myself.
I was never the type to "see myself" doing X or Y, I always sort of waited and tried to move forward....like, I would figure things out (like everyone tells me I will). but I don't want to see myself doing this while you and everyone else moves on to things that matter.
Do I want the job? -yes. Would it be good to have a change?-Most definitely. Do I need the money? -holy shit yes. But I don't feel proud.
And I'm tired of having people tell me that I should be.
I'm tired of things like TJs being the best I can hope for right now. My only good shot at a job.
How am I supposed to feel about that--proud? I don't feel proud. I feel embarrassed for myself.
I was never the type to "see myself" doing X or Y, I always sort of waited and tried to move forward....like, I would figure things out (like everyone tells me I will). but I don't want to see myself doing this while you and everyone else moves on to things that matter.
Do I want the job? -yes. Would it be good to have a change?-Most definitely. Do I need the money? -holy shit yes. But I don't feel proud.
And I'm tired of having people tell me that I should be.
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