Ibby
Since Saturday I've been having really vivid memories of Kurt....
and the 40-something hour period where I sat in my room, just....sobbing; the mess I left (and was) after the notification, the strange and noticeable rawness my eyes adopted......the Sounds.
That's where my memories are the strongest. The sounds. I catch them echoing in my mind at the most random times, even now.
Im trying to process the random, small pieces of information while seeing my friend go through a similar situation.
I remember the shrill sounds of my own bawling, sounds of pillows and things hitting the wall, the bed frame, my fist against my desk until my hand throbbed in the center of my throat. I even remember the sound of my voice in the message I left my mom at 4 in the morning that probably terrified her beyond belief.
On the bus ride home I caught myself staring--lost in the sounds that lead to an inescapable, familiar, and profound ache. (maybe it's something I didn't fully confront to begin with).
My heart goes out to Ibby and everyone who was close to Jeff.
and the 40-something hour period where I sat in my room, just....sobbing; the mess I left (and was) after the notification, the strange and noticeable rawness my eyes adopted......the Sounds.
That's where my memories are the strongest. The sounds. I catch them echoing in my mind at the most random times, even now.
Im trying to process the random, small pieces of information while seeing my friend go through a similar situation.
I remember the shrill sounds of my own bawling, sounds of pillows and things hitting the wall, the bed frame, my fist against my desk until my hand throbbed in the center of my throat. I even remember the sound of my voice in the message I left my mom at 4 in the morning that probably terrified her beyond belief.
On the bus ride home I caught myself staring--lost in the sounds that lead to an inescapable, familiar, and profound ache. (maybe it's something I didn't fully confront to begin with).
My heart goes out to Ibby and everyone who was close to Jeff.
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